i just read in anastasia's journal that omar majzoub passed away in a car accident in lebanon. omar was ahmad majzoub's brother. i think he was 18... i've known omar since the fifth grade...when ahmad and him beat the shit out of me..hahaha. gosh i was such a fucking pussy back then, to be beaten up by a kid in a grade lower than you. oh well. i also remember him from band. he played the trumpet despite only having three fingers on his right hand (i think he was born that way). he was a quieter version of ahmad, but still quite loud and obnoxious, haha. if ahmad was the type that would run through campus in the nude (which isn't far from possibility) then his brother would be the one rooting him on..haha. he was also in my ap computer science class in 11th grade. he used to call me to help him do his fucking homework...jeez. he also used to copy code from me and vice versa. computer science bums are always bums till the end. he was real fun to hang around with. i remember going to ahmad's house a few times and he'd come hang out with us...he had a great sense of humor and i remember playing "penis" with him in class. he seriously was a great guy and it's a real fucking shame for his life to be over with so soon. i really feel sorry for his family and especially ahmad.

it kinda puts things in a different perspective. when i heard yazzan's dad died i felt pretty bad for yazzan. that's like a part of his life being gone suddenly. it's like...he's going to remember everything up to the point where he finds out his father died in a hospital thousands of miles away, and then he's going to remember everything after. its like a giant fucking rock in the middle of the highway that you have to swerve to miss. and if you don't swerve you crash right? driving people-- you know what i'm talking about. whenever you get a near-miss and nearly hit someone your adrenaline is pumped, you're nervous and shook up like you've just waken up from a day dream. i think death in anyone's life is a lot like this. you get introspective, i guess.

i want all my friends to know that i love them.