ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,

the holidays (the apocalypse) are upon us. in about 15 minutes i'm going to have to work my last shift before i head off to see my parents...though on second thought, i could always drive tomorrow morning... (hmmmm...) i'll have to call them soon or something.

11am-7:30pm, today i guess.

yesterday i skipped work, due mainly to my "sea sickness" induced by ingesting copious amounts of J&B scotch the previous night. i helped lorri move and the strain probably didn't do my stomach too well. i threw up twice, called work and told them to fuck off, slept a good two and a half hours and then woke up and did incredible amounts of nothing until hanging out with kristin and seeing I Am Legend with her and Brandon.

the movie wasn't all that bad. it definitely did NOT follow the book at all, and it was pretty mindless, but i guess i was in the mood for a mindless movie and i know that anything with will smith in it isn't going to be some crazy psychological thriller or mystery movie that was going to work my brain muscle much.

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...nice, just called my dad and it's okay with them if i drive down tomorrow, which will actually give me time to clean my room, get my costume together for the mars volta concert (still need a fake eyelash, damnit), clean the kitchen and living room, and slap a baby across the face! WHOO!

okay, off to work.

despite the mistakes, this is still a fucking eargasm:
the mars volta does a reaction video to 2girls1cup. "for an adventurous band, we're a bunch of pussies" haha.

one of my favorite songs:

bleh i'm so hungover today. i threw up twice already!!! yayyyy.

hmm, well i can still break out of a cage, grab a beer, and hit on women better than these guys can.

 that makes me smarter, right?

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i saw'd queens of the stone age again in san francisco last night and my ears are still kinda ringing. the solution? blast metallica through the speakers, drink heavily, throw midgets through hoops of flame, and slap nuns across the face. the next big thing to look out for is seeing the mars volta on new years.

apparently, we're required to wear costumes...i want to wear my alex de large costume but i'm afraid of being one of 300 wearing the same goddamn thing. if all else fails, i'll just resort to default.

i really need to clean my room.

ben invited me to a christmas party at his place tonight. i don't want to go mainly because i just kinda don't want to drink tonight. i'm just kinda in that mood for some reason.

insert bleh here.

spent a good deal of time talking to a very cute girl which surprised me more than anything else in the world ever has (decapitation videos, 2girls1cup has nothing on me) but i ended up leaving the "party" feeling much the same way i feel sober: angry with the world, ready to leave it without the bags being properly packed yet not really caring because i've already got the tickets and the visas have been stamped.

came home at 12. i'm still drunk writing this.

a few things before i go to bed:

after my 22nd birthday, i intend on going straightedge for a year (as in, at least until my 23rd birthday)

crush girl needs to know how i feel.

while i'm alive.

i got church gone wild/chirphin hard
and
hold your horse is

by hella last night.

church/chirpin is a double solo album, one half done by spencer, and the other half done by zach hill.

church gone wild is straight up FUCKROCK. i can't find any other words to describe it. it's a semi-structured conglomeration of blood, fecal matter, sweat, children screaming as they're being murdered with butter knives, and straight up FUCK. one reviewer hit the nail right on the head and decapitated the pope with the words "this album is not for the faint of heart." it's got plenty of noise, repetitive violent sounds, and just when you think your head  is about to eat itself from the weight of this heavy shit, it gets slammed by a four ton bag of shit. zach hill is a very very dangerous musical genius.

chirpin hard is the epitome of amazing noise and math rock. it's got great nintendo-esque sounds from every track, very very trippy and definitely a much easier listen than church gone wild. it's packed full of incredible song writing and i am already in love with it. this cd is just too fucking good.

hold your horse is, is of course their first released album. i already heard half the songs on the acoustics album, and so on.

i'm going out to get some drunk on tonight. nothing like monday night though; i enjoy not feeling like shit, thanks.

wow, that was intense. i nearly had a panic attack today in my drugs class so i got up and left. it really sucked because its my favorite class but oh well, and here i am.

it was kind of intense...i was sitting there trying to concentrate on what the professor was saying and writing notes but i couldn't stop shaking, fidgeting and overall just moving my body. my heart was kind of racing and i had (and still have) difficulty controlling my hands (as a matter of fact, typing this entry is kind of strenuous) and taking notes. my vision was tunnelling and the table at the front of the room was starting to get wavy and slanty and i just felt like i was going insane so i bounced.

as i left i kinda felt like i was having some kind of hallucinogenic flashback because all the colors outside seemed really bright. everything was getting me paranoid, i didnt want to see people or cars and i just overall felt really shitty like i was outside of myself. i gotta take a nap or something and stop drinking.

gotta get some green again. i hate this feeling.

hello out there. my name is butch, and i've got A BIG MOTHERFUCKING HEADACHE FROM HAVING 16 DRINKS LAST NIGHT.